Quintessentially Yours

When Mal comes back from his tour tonight, he's going to come home. I'm meeting him at the airport and he's coming home with me.

Mal and I are coming home!!

Oh dear god I am still hungover from Serenity's Halloween party.

Have to say though, hearing Serenity play again? Most beautiful thing ever.

Okay, I'm calmed down enough not to want to actively seek out revenge, but I'm still livid.

Mal's mother told him I had gone through with a dissolution of our union. Mal sent me papers in case I wanted to, but I ripped them up. He's my husband and I love him. And she lied to him to keep him from me and now he is god knows where, thinking I don't love him anymore, which is one of the worst things I could imagine.

I hired a PI though, to go looking for him. I hope this works. I've had enough of this.

Usually I'm okay. I'm surviving. And then sometimes I realise that I haven't seen my husband since September, and it breaks my heart all over again.

This wasn't supposed to be how it would go.

Fuck you, Frankie O'Reilly.

FUCK

Mal was in Whitehead with his parents and Frankie's friends beat the shit out of him and he was in hospital for five days or something and then Mal's parents KICKED HIM OUT OF HOME AGAIN and now they don't know where he is

FUCK FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! FUCK.


FUCK!

I got divorce papers (dissolution of marriage papers, whatever) from Mal's lawyer and I tore them up and threw them away. He is not killing my marriage like he killed Frankie.

I'm so angry with him. I panicked. Frankie tried to kill me again and then there was a gun aimed at me and someone died right beside me and I saw Mal act in ways he hasn't acted in years and I fucking panicked and now he's run off. When he married me, he promised to stay with me and now he's fucking up. I'm angry, but I'm not giving up. We can fix it if he would just come home instead of running away like this.

I get why he runs. He was kicked out of his home and for a long time he had nowhere. Which is terrifying, but it also means you aren't tied to any specific place. He always hated being inside for long periods of time because it's too confining. He likes to be out and moving. Of course he would run. When you have stability taken away, you move on.

Doesn't mean I'm not pissed off. And the pissed off is saving me from curling up and dying, so...all in all, this is better.

I am going to kick his arse when I do find him. After I barricade him in somewhere so he can't run off again.

Goddammit, Malachy, you see what you do to me? I love you, you idiot. Come home.

...Mal transferred every single one of our accounts to just my name and he gave me all of his percentage of ownership in the shelter. Peter called me to say he left.

My husband left me. He left me. The note said I could be expecting divorce papers in the mail I could sign if I wanted.

If I wanted!? If I want to divorce Mal?! My husband. My other half. He's just gone and I don't know where he is-

I have to go vomit.

My husband just brought me two dozen roses! Out of the blue! I love them! I am such a woman, wheee!

Mal, you are made of wonder, and I love you. Thank you!

I wanted to have this conversation with you in person, but when I get frustrated or upset, I can't think which means I can't really speak.

Eamon, where the hell are you? You left the other day and you haven't been back. And when you were here, I told you Adrina was upset, but you were too goddamn drunk to notice. And now that (hopefully) you're sober, you can't come over to see why?

I've never really been disappointed in you before, so apparently this is what it feels like. I don't like it. Eamon, you're fucking up. Fix it.